You get in a lot of trouble, trying to be cool; just leave it for the ahole you hate from the distances. I’d be high everyday for those years, literally, I’d be sober one day out of the month, and I still might’ve smoked herb that day as consolation every other month. Maybe. Zz.
I didn’t necessarily miss out… but things could have been better by now. You literally jus get frozen in time… while everybody else is moving forward, including their feelings being on, while yer feelings are off, so you can’t meet them mentally, until you do some years of catching up. You know yer smart enough to catch up if you could jus one day quit. WHEN you quit, I guess you either quit before it’s too late… or you let it kill you.